What do you do when you have more bad days than good days? I know my last post said 'you're having a bad day, you don't have a bad life'. I believe that's true but what do we do when we don't feel like that? What do we do when we feel like we have the worst life ever? What do we do when the weight of the world is pressing so heavily on our shoulders it's almost hard to breathe? How about when we truly, to the depths of our souls, can't get out of the pit that depression or anxiety is holding us under?
I don't know.
If I did, I wouldn't still deal with some of those feelings. No one would. The truth is many people deal with these issues and you're not alone.
The truth is there is never a "quick fix". Quick fixes don't exist- but healing does.
The answer is to keep going. Every minute is an accomplishment. I remember when I was feeling my worst a couple years ago I took a long drive. I was meeting with a Pastor to talk about my life and the desperation I was going through. On the way home from the meeting I started singing. Like to myself, in the car, just for fun. That was the first time I had sang anything or even wanted to attempt to make any joyful noise come out of my mouth in a long time. Just for a moment I had a glimpse of what it would feel like to be "normal" again. It gave me hope.
Seek those moments. Seek the moments where your heart can be a little lighter and you can breathe a little easier. The more you seek, the more you find.
When you seem to have more bad days than good days, learn to cherish the good ones. In fact, stop measuring your time in days or even hours. Sometimes we need to go minute by minute. It can be so much work to pursue joy and healing- sometimes it feels exhausting.
But it's SO WORTH IT. You're SO WORTH IT.
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